Though Your Heart Is Breaking (0n first finding Brian Wilson's "Smile" in the wasteland of 1985):
Eventually you begin to suspect that they aren't really talking about "Smile" as much as their own collections of fragmented dreams and broken ambitions. You like to think your ongoing interest is more intellectual than emotional.
You may be kidding yourself here. But fortunately you have chosen to become a journalist, a pursuit which not only gives you license to turn your fixations into assignments but also actually encourages you to do so.